So it has been indeed a while since I last updated, something that I swore I would do more often, but with me moving into my own place and having to do things around here and what not it tends to make things a wee bit hard to sit down and relax to do. Since I last wrote, I successfully completed the Portland Marathon, with a time of 3:43 for the entire 26.2 miles, not bad if I do say so myself. I got my shiny finishers medal and bragging rights for like, and will be running Eugene and Portland as of next year, so that is something to look forward to, even if I will be dampered a bit afterwards since its really hard on your body, its an experience I think none should pass up on. After that, I got my own place on the coast, as my parental moved away with her new boyfriend from florida, odd story ill tell you if you ask. And now Ive just been working and living lol trying to relax when I can, and stay alive. I have to go to the dentist tomorrow to get, how I put it, "Drilled and Filled", I have a few cavities as its been about 6 years since Ive been to a dentist, starting to take care of myself a little more as time goes on, and it feels good even though I know I will be low on cash afterwards, its still a nice feeling. I recently ordered FINAL FANTASY XIII!!! And Am waiting for that to come out, but theres a slight ringing of familarity to the whole story, sounds like a clone of final fantasy 7 just with a different cast, maybe Im just being hypocritical as I tend to compare everything to my first Final Fantasy experience but theres too many similarities between the two for it just to be a coincidence. I am also looking forward to the new kingdom hearts when ever that comes out, for the PSP, as it would seem that it would be rather enjoyable to play, eccspecially since the series is such a great story line. Other then that I will have new art uploaded here shortly, as I dont want to spoil any surprises, not sure if my brother actually looks at my profile but he has said he does on occasion so I wouldnt want to spoil anything for him.

So it has indeed been a while since I have updated anyone on here as to whats been going on, and why theres been a lack of, and by lack I mean a serious lack of stuff being put up, and mainly is cause I just haven't really had time to do anything really . I have been getting ready for the Portland Marathon, and haven't had time to sit around and talk to anyone, on the account of work and what not, I have talked to some friends on here but not alot of them, as I run early in the morning then go to work for the rest of the day and by the time I get home I just don't have the time to really sit around, I do stretches and then go to bed, its rather lame I know but I mean its a MARATHON! I don't want to be underly prepared, which Im sure I still will be though lol. Also have been in the process of moving out of my parentals house, as she has decided to have a man she's known for 2 weeks move in all the way from Florida, and I think its insane and she wont hear me out, so I am trying to find my own pad to live, which might mean that I wont be able to be on nearly as much as I have been, but we'll see, if I get in a good neighborhood then I should be able to pull some sort of wifi in with my 733T skills! I do miss everyone, Magic... well Magic lol I'm actually really tired right now it was just a really long day so I should probably end this here now before I start rambling on, so I will talk to you all when I have the chance!

Well after just having hit enter without actually posting anything it seems that would be another thing that has mildly entertained me today. Everything seems so drab and dreary as of late, I can't really put my finger on it, everyone else is really happy and what not, enjoying their lifes and all that and unfortunately I feel myself once again slipping towards that depression mode. Not sure what sets it off, but I really just wish some people would leave me alone, not alot of people just some people, cause theres just some that just build up and up and up and I want to explode on, but I don't, cause Im far too nice for that, and because that doesnt solve anything really. Other then all the emotional what not, life is pretty good, been picking up on my running again, I seem to justify not running with the amount of biking I do, and the fact that Im on my feet all night at work, come summer I won't even have time to do a journal entry most likely, and everyone will want to hang out and go out to the bar, where as I feel that I should just come home and relax and rest, and that will send warning signs off for people that theres something wrong. Which there isn't not yet anyways. A friend offered to buy my Xbox 360 and I think I might actually take him up on the offer since, well, I don't play it and I really want to have money for the PSP 2 that could possibly be coming out this fall, and yea that would be awesome if it did, I'd be all over that shit lol. Ive started my own little black book here not online, my moleskin is getting filled up night after night, which is good cause I have so much stuff that goes through my head its nice to get it all out so that Im not thinking about it so much, if you couldnt tell this is me simply rambling on trying to waste some time because I don't really want to clean my room, even though its not even that dirty lol. Oh shoot laundry shit, brb lol.
Anyways a while ago, I figured out that I was secular, if you need the definition look it up on Wikipedia, under Secularism. And I've also come to the conclusion that I am actually A-sexual, meaning I don't really care for sex, or relationship for that matter, making me Aromantic Asexual. Which is quite comforting to know that there are in fact a lot more people like that then I originally had thought, so that its not something I feel that I need to hide away from everyone around me, I DON"T CARE FOR SEX OR RELATIONSHIPS. Phew that feels good. lol I just enjoy company with others, but hate the idea of placing so much emphasis on one person, caring for someone such as a friend immensely is one thing, where as placing someone as the one that makes you complete seems something rather dimwitted if you ask me, but thats me, always logical never reasonable. So thats about it, oh and Im trying to find a balance between too much and not enough and right now I feel I have too much of not enough lol I just need to get rid of a few more things, downsize and I feel that Ill be good to go, after all the less things you have the less things you need to worry about right?

With the whole recession still in order, the world coming to its knees from the giant that is Global Warming, and everyone else trying to develope weapons to blow each other to bits, we really need to ask ourselves when enough is enough. One area that is essential to live a more relaxing and stress free life is our home, so many things build up and just get laid around that it becomes a hassle to just pick it up and get around, in some extreme cases. While I still do have alot of work to do in this area, prioritizing my day would seem the most effective way to go about doing this, but lets say you get a grip on your house? Now what? We'll you do have your yard, and possibly a garden, but outside from the place that you live, and possibly work if you own a business, you don't really have all that much to accomplish really, not to be little the struggle of course. Once were done we do get to sit back and realize how peaceful it truly is to live simpler and with less around us, but then we should maximize. Now Im not saying once you get to a place of nirvana you should upgrade your house, car, ecetera, that would defeat the purpose of finding that comfortable place. I'm saying maximize your area, outdoors is huge, and so many of us nowaday leave almost all the stones unturned in our neighborhoods that we barely know the area, something that could benefit in a more relaxed life while living there. Familarizing yourself with what is around you can save you time, stress, and get you where you need to be faster, nowadays people rely on GPS and directions on a piece of paper, which is fine if your going somewhere that is completely clueless to you, but using your GPS in your home town? Thats a cry for help.
     Now I'm not going to be a hippocrit and say this without relating it to something that I'd currently been through but, I don't know Cannon Beach at all, even though its like 15 minutes away from where I live. Well lets just say the GPS wanted to take us to a State Park instead of the bikeshop that I wanted to be at, knowing that area would have saved us a least 45 minutes of driving around looking for it, sure the time we spent looking for it was fun, we went down a road Id never been down, but we still took a bit longer then I had really wanted to to find the place, long story short we found it, unfortunately the owner was sick and had closed the shop, maybe thats a bad example. Had I knew the area a little better we might have figured out that he had in fact closed up shop since he was  sick, and that time wouldn't have been wasted, and we would have had more time to do other things. Getting out and experiencing what there is around your community is a great way to learn new things, and be comfortable in your surroundings, as well as meet new people, unless you of course live out in the middle of the desert or somewhere isolated. So with your simplicity you can also maximize your time in your community, getting you outside, and exercising which as we all know is good for us, whether we want to admit we need to do it more or we can do it at all. So get outside and release some of that tension by feeling the air blow through your hair.

Well with April 1st coming to a close, the day seems to have finally come down and stopped being so confusing, from sites that have been "pranking" everyone to people in the news that just seem to like to get a laugh at other peoples expense, its all got my head in a whirl. Today was alright, my Nike+ stopped working so I will either have to invest in a battery for the pedometer part or, well use my phone and just listen to music while I run, I do enjoy the voice feedback though, so we'll see if it works tomorrow. Having hit a slump in my running, it has been nagging at me to start running more again, with the biking to and from work being a good source of exercise and being on my feet all night at work with ankle weights on being good, I'm afraid of over doing it, been there dont that before, and got injured in the process of doing it so yeah more or less will be careful about all that. Work was alright however, it did seem dull and rather boring at times, it was slow since the weather sucks, and to think its suppose to be spring break this week and its going to be raining almost all week, so much for making a bit of money in tips. I've been considering spending money, but I cringe at the thought of it, because one, I don't have alot of it, I hate to think how college students go about surviving, two, I dont really need anything, although I do need shoes and new set of pedals on my bike, because well I broke the pedal on one side of the bike and its kind of a pain to ride with a busted pedal.
The boss started training me to work up front and while Im excited, Im not at the same time, because as much as being able to do more is nice, I don't like people using that to their advantage, take some of the girls that work up front as well, not all of them, just a few, mainly one, would most likely use me being able to make salads, take orders and cut pizzas and what not as me being able to do whatever she should be doing so that she can do something that she would rather want to to do such as talking to customers for random amounts of minutes rather then just doing her job. Knowing how to do more is very helpful and puts you at a better position, but it does have its downsides, and I dont really want to start feeling like I'm being used as a Do-It-All kinda guy and been stretched thin at work, keeping busy is one thing, being a busy body is another, I just hope this summer isnt a complete disaster, cause I have a feeling it might be. Other then work, my mom is currently going through something in counseling, Im not at free liberty to talk about but it does rather have me questioning what she is hoping to get out of her poking and proding of her past. I have so far been able to practice cooking at the house, at least once a week since we have alot of extras. I need to go to bed however, seems that Im pretty tuckered out so I will type more tomorrow.